I'm really glad I don't live in Seattle, I wouldn't like the constant rain. As is, in Texas the weather changes every 15 minutes. It's not uncommon for it to rain on one side of the road and not the other. I don't have much energy these days, but had to do some laundry and hauled it to the laundromat this morning. I was very fatigued by the time I got there. I put a dent into what I need to get done and it was nice that no one else was there early this morning.

When you are going through a catastrophic illness you start to appreciate little things like green grass, flowers and an uncrowded laundromat. I don't sweat the small stuff anymore.

I was so tired from just doing a little laundry that I crashed until 4pm this afternoon. Fatigue is a common problem and one that I just have to deal with.
People who visit my website have been incredibly supportive and understanding
esp after treatment days. I don't do chemo anymore per se, I do receive a drug called zometa once a month in an IV through the port in my chest. I also take a number of drugs on a daily basis, one of which is designed to keep my horomone levels down. My kidneys hurt much of the time because the drugs are hard on my body. I sometimes wonder if it's the drugs that kill people more than the cancer.

Cancer has been a wake up call for me. I like to think I'm surviving because I'm a pain in the ass. I just refuse to give up like my mother did. She died at 56, smoked herself to death, but she had two different types of breast cancer. I'm not ready to give up yet. I don't feel old at 52, I still have several years ahead of me.

Well here I am all messed up and no place to grow. It's been a long week.

Just to catch everyone up the Penn and Teller Bullshit segment I am in aired in Aug 2004, it's called Death, Inc. They did a good job, considering it is only a 30 min show.

Flight From Death documentary has not been released yet. I was interviewed for Flight in 2003. Patrick is an awesome director. Greg is a joy to be around even if he is folically impaired.

I have shit loads of laundry to do today. I think between Starbucks and laundry I'll be busy woman. There is nothing quite as disgusting as having a pair of jeans be able to stand up on their own.

Later, kids!

O.K. I'm sure someone is bound to ask "you lost your blog". Yeah well chalk it up to chemo brain. I know its been 10 months since I wrote anything, but I honestly lost track of it.

Life is an interesting chain of events for me. My neighbors from hell have finally sold their house (yes!), but now I want a bigger house myself. I've been to Hawaii a few bazillion times and made it to the top of Diamonhead Crater last April. Research is always interesting, but we are no closer to a cure for advanced breast cancer than we were a year ago.

I'm so happy I found this blog again. Not that anyone will care what I think or have to say, but maybe just maybe someone will read this one day and say "wow she was prophetic, cool and had one hell of a sense of humor".