I'm really glad I don't live in Seattle, I wouldn't like the constant rain. As is, in Texas the weather changes every 15 minutes. It's not uncommon for it to rain on one side of the road and not the other. I don't have much energy these days, but had to do some laundry and hauled it to the laundromat this morning. I was very fatigued by the time I got there. I put a dent into what I need to get done and it was nice that no one else was there early this morning.

When you are going through a catastrophic illness you start to appreciate little things like green grass, flowers and an uncrowded laundromat. I don't sweat the small stuff anymore.

I was so tired from just doing a little laundry that I crashed until 4pm this afternoon. Fatigue is a common problem and one that I just have to deal with.
People who visit my website have been incredibly supportive and understanding
esp after treatment days. I don't do chemo anymore per se, I do receive a drug called zometa once a month in an IV through the port in my chest. I also take a number of drugs on a daily basis, one of which is designed to keep my horomone levels down. My kidneys hurt much of the time because the drugs are hard on my body. I sometimes wonder if it's the drugs that kill people more than the cancer.

Cancer has been a wake up call for me. I like to think I'm surviving because I'm a pain in the ass. I just refuse to give up like my mother did. She died at 56, smoked herself to death, but she had two different types of breast cancer. I'm not ready to give up yet. I don't feel old at 52, I still have several years ahead of me.