Sick and Tired of being Sick and Tired

I don't know what it is about travel, but I almost always seem to catch something. I had a cold in April and again in May which has kept me from singing and I sure as heck have not been inspired to write much. I've tried every trick in the book to keep from getting sick, but I still manage to pick up every germ floating around me. Maybe I need to wear a plastic bubble or something. The great thing is I was so inspired in March and did quite a bit of writing that I'm not feeling guilty about not being more productive right now.

It is what it is. I think when I can get to a point where I'm not living on a jet my health will improve. I hope to be flying less as of next year. Of course that all depends on what happens with my music and my book, but for the moment I'm just letting it be.

Life is like a box of chocolates, too bad I can't seem to eat just one.

May Day May Day

O.K. don't get all worked up I was just playing around here. It's already May and this is a new day in May.

I really appreciate all the great feedback I've been getting about this blog and I am becoming more comfortable with sharing my thoughts here. A few have asked about leaving comments. The reason I turned it off was due to spam mostly, I just don't have time to monitor this and our forum, too.

I'm grateful to hear that there are many fans out there who look forward to my posts. It really does my heart good to know that people appreciate this blog.

Crazy Little Thing Called Life

As much as I seem to live on airplanes you would think that I'd be a better judge of character. What I've come to realize is that even in travel you have the good, the bad and the ugly. It's pretty sad when you look at your fellow passenger and you wonder if they are wanted for murder somewhere.

I actually like to travel, but also love my space. I like a spot on the beach just for me so I can shoot beautiful sunsets and meditate by the ocean side. Crowds sometimes make me crazy. I'm a loner, but I am not anti-social. 

I'm on my own path in life and I feel just fine about who I am and where I am going.

Inner Bitch (Connie Hunt)

          We all have it, just some people perpetually live it I think. Personally I find it highly annoying when someone speaks to me in psychobabble, I'd much prefer Pig Latin or Afrikaans in lieu of language that seems full of filler and ego.  People who write Gone With The Wind, when a simple sentence will describe the same thing drive me nuts. They think they are communicating, when in reality they are creating confusion and mixed messages. I'm more of a "get to the point" or "bottom line this for me" kind of a person.

Creeping Crud

Traveling can be so darn hard. Since early March I've flown roughly 14 times and have amassed almost 80,000 airmiles. I picked up a cold at Chicago O'Hare where I was stranded a week ago. I call it the "Creeping Crud". When I laugh I sound like Mutley the cartoon dog. O'Hare is the worst airport to be stranded. Thank goodness it pays to complain as the airlines are more than accomodating especially when you are a very frequent traveler.

Two more weeks of this flying insanity and then I will have a break. In May I am actually going to spend some time in Hawaii for more than a few hours. I think I've earned a vacation. I can't wait.

Satan Uses Fedex For Packages  8715 5666 8666 (Connie Hunt)

Somehow accepting a package with all those 666's in it felt rather creepy. I was warned it was coming and instructed my staff to hire a priest to scare off any demons and refuse the package.

I will never understand why people think that shoving
materialistic crap down someone's throat is just what the doctor ordered. It's fine what someone believes, but don't try to recruit me into your 4 agreement cult. I am not interested in  anything that encourages people to pass judgment, to slam dunk people emotionally and not take ownership for your own faults and behaviors. 

Sure seems to me that some people like to hide behind something symbolic of a mother's skirt or umbilical cord.  Time to face reality and face your own demons without hiding from the truth.

I So Believe In Karma (Connie Hunt)

My life has always had a funny way of turning out o.k. for me. I've always taken negatives in my life and turned them into positives. Karma really can come back and bite you. I've always believed in taking care of the planet and in harvesting great relationships with everyone I meet.

Lately, I had wondered if I was doing something wrong. I'm very glad I made my trip to L.A. as I met some very wonderful people, discussed my options with my agent and made some critical decisions for myself in terms of health, emotional well being and what I hope to do with my music and writing.

When I landed in San Francisco, I had to change planes to get back home, I felt very peaceful.

Karma is something I will never mess with. Next to Karma the Goddess Pele is high on my list of forces never to piss off.

Sincerely Insincere People (Connie Hunt)

Have you ever met someone who could care less how you feel? That your feelings not only didn't matter to them, but they honestly expected you to agree with them and their perceptions of you?

Compassion is not something these people have to show anyone. They are so focused on the "me" in their lives, that they can never see the "we". When I reach out and touch someone, it's a sincere gesture of friendship. It's not often I put myself out there because I'm a little gun shy from past experiences. I tend to be too trusting and tend to open my heart up to people who don't have a clue as to what I am all about.

The great thing is some of my greatest writing comes from these very experiences. I've already decided to title my album "Illusion" and will be working with local musicians to make it a reality. I've also continued working on my book.

Tuesday I fly to Los Angeles to meet with an agent who wants to represent me. He saw me in "Flight From Death" and "Penn and Teller Bullshit Season Two Death Inc", but he mostly heard about me through locals and has seen me perform here in Dallas. I'm certainly not a rock star, but folks have been encouraging me to both share my songs and poetry. I've decided to go for it.

I'm a person who can create just about anywhere, that includes Starbucks, on a plane, sometimes just walking or taking a shower.When the inspiration hits, I have a pen and pad nearby so I can jot down lyrics or a melody. In the last two days I've written an instrumental song called "Sweet Chili Sauce" and a new song called "White Trash Diva".

I am not about to let heartache stop me from being who I am, but I wish the world had a few less sincerely insincere people in it.

Illusion or Hallucination?



I wrote three songs while on a trip recently, here are the lyrics to one of them.

The song is called "Illusion"

Imagine by a chance of fate,
You met a dream face to face
She waltzed in and then walked out
Leaving you with little doubt
That it was just an illusion.

And when you woke, what might have been
Some things are never what they seem,
Dreams may come, but then depart
Lessons learned from the heart.

Social Media CAN HURT YOU!


Social media is great for promoting your music, your writing, but it can be extremely scary for someone who is trying to use it as a means of "connecting" with others. When I joined an email list a few years ago I became the subject of some very vicious gossip. There were women who supported me, but there were also a few who were so determined to out me as some sort of fraud, an insensitive human being, the scum of the earth. For some time I have tried to avoid people who are negative, unfortunately they have found me on Facebook.

I apologized to the list some time ago, as I am not perfect and I do make mistakes. Some were willing to accept my apology, others have continually beaten me down.

People who do love and care about me often want to know why I've been so fearful of letting people into my life. I think now they fully understand why I tend to be guarded.

I just recently returned from a trip only to find in my Facebook file a few notes from some folks who have advised me that there are some derrogatory comments about me being circulated through Facebook messaging. I hope that those of you who do know me will consider the source and those of you who don't know me I hope you will try to see through it all.

I am not a perfect person, I have made mistakes in my life, but I also try to make right when I commit a wrong. I'm being unjustly crucified and it's killing me inside.

Just A Song Before I Go.....

To whom it may concern, traveling twice the speed of sound it's easy to get burned...

Graham Nash


I've always loved that song, especially now since it seems to apply to my life so well.

I'm just not sure what to think of anything at the moment. I am taking off for who knows where to just think, write some music and poetry, and just get away from everyone. I can't give any more than I have and I feel like I let people down all the time. I find solace in flying, in escaping to peaceful and tranquil places. I have a right to peace of mind.

I'm so tired of not being good enough, of not giving enough.

And I'm scared to death that when I do open up my heart, that it's all just a dream. That those connections we have that come unexpectedly are just something we've imagined.

I'm tired of hurting, tired of feeling inadequate, tired of feeling like I've failed people.

I've always been a loving and giving person, but I have needs, too. For just once in my life I would like to feel that I'm good enough at something.

A Song for Morticians

The following can be sung to "Santa Claus is Coming To Town".

Yes I wrote it!

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You better do me and do me right,
Pickle me any day or night,
Make me rigid, hard and pretty.

Oh do me with class, don't laugh at my ass
Make me look real, relieve me of gas
Make me rigid, hard and pretty.

And when you do my viewing I hope that folks will say
She looks just like a million bucks cause that's what they'll have to pay.

Oh you better do me and do me right
Pickle me any time of day or night
Make me rigid, hard and pretty.

I'm Not Dead....YET


I've been a very bad blogger. I know I should post more and there is much for me to say. I've had some time to reflect on my life and have had some real adventures in the past three years. I'll try harder, don't give up on me please!

Suicide Is Painless

The lyrics to the Mash Theme Song keep running through my head today, especially the refrain which is:

"that suicide is painless

It brings on many changes

and I can take or leave it if I please."

Two years ago today a gentle, young man, full of promise and creative genius stepped onto tracks and ended his life. I knew his pain well. I know what battling depression is like. I also know how hard it is to fight off the demons that are within your soul.


Giancarlo Colombo reminds me to stay in touch with my own feelings, to be gentle with myself and to have compassion for others. He continues to lead by example and from the heart.


My thoughts and prayers are with his family and friends.

There's Always Hope

I wanted to update everyone on my house situation as I've been away for some time. I don't wish my situation on anyone. The fact that my homebuilder is playing stupid, the flood remediation company (ServPro) trashed my life and then put a lien on my house because I had issues with their work, have not made my life any easier.

Fortunately a good attorney can get you through the hell. I plan on starting a website about ServPro which will include my story and photos of my house and how they left it.

The good news is I had the good fortune to find the most beautiful rustic and carved Mexican furniture. Some of it was delivered today. It's nice to feel like home is coming back together.

For over a month my chihuahua and I had to live in a Motel 6 because the water was shut off to the house. There were two pipe breaks, one outside and the big one inside. Everything has been fixed, but I'm trying to decide what I want to do with the concrete slab. I'm inclined to not put carpet in again and have my floor stained and sealed.

My pets and I slept on an air mattress for a month until I could start to replace furniture. We had to sleep in the kitchen. Needless to say my pets loved the air sofa (that's what they call it) and we have managed to survive this ordeal.

It's been so weird to realize how much I lost, I've had to replace everything from the lawnmower to my cancer meds. So much was tossed out, so much that could have been saved.

Oh well...you pick yourself up and dust yourself off.

My House Flooded What A Mess!!!!

I've just been really busy and then all of the sudden my house floods. Thank goodness I handed off the Bluelips project to Karen because right now I'm spending all my time just trying to figure out what to do with my home.

For those of you considering buying a Choice Home please don't. I've had foundation issues and my house kept popping. Now my plumbing blew up.

It looks like I might lose my home. But you know what I've wanted to move on for some time now. Who knows maybe this will end up to be a good thing.

Help! I've got this little problem!!!!!

A couple of nights ago some jolly guy in a fat suit showed up on my doorstep in the middle of the night. Said he was doing a test run and need a place to crash for a couple of nights. Problem is he doesn't fit through my doorway, so we ended up greasing him up and letting him slide down my chimney. He's got eight reindeer who are generating a bunch of poop in my yard. On top of it all he's got this sleigh, has had to double park and all my nosey neighbors are wondering who the new man in my life is.

One of the reindeer, I think his name is Rudolph, won't stay off my furniture. He's also keeping me awake at night with his bad nose job. Whomever did his face lift forgot to remove the laser beam from his nose.

And if their intrusion isn't enough, he's invited all these midgets over to my house for Thanksgiving. They are getting into everything and keep hammering, it's giving me a headache.

So if any of you wonder if I have a sense of humor, I guess I do. Pass the stuffing and rolls please.

Happy Thanksgiving everyone I hope I made some of you laugh (and yes, I did write the above).

I Love You I Hate You

That's how I've felt about forums for a long time. I never wanted one on Bluelips, but Karen my business partner said it was something we should offer.

I still am not big on forums, but I do thank Karen for her saavy as it has been successful and it's got some interesting characters there. I do hate it when it does down, but it now appears that they've worked out the bugs and other than some enhancements we are waiting for it's very stable.

I've posted a link to the forum so you can sign up. Just look at our links section. It's free, we don't charge for air, forum participation or laughter at Bluelips.

Remembering Shanta Barber

Every now and then someone waltzes into your life when you least expect it and even though you may not have much time with them you bond. Shanta sought me out from a breast cancer support list we were both on. She had many questions about death and dying and sought me out for answers. In the process we became good friends. We only saw each other in person once and that was to go for tempura for lunch. Shanta picked me up in her husbands BMW and I was in love (with the car mostly). Shanta was able to out eat me 2 to 1 that day. We had to laugh because we were both undergoing treatment and yet we were ravenous. The food was amazing. That day I decided to give her a special ring tone on my cell phone. I played it for her and she really loved it. I could never get rid of it so I have now assigned it to her husband, Dennis. Shanta went with me for wound care and met my oncologist. I had hoped she would entrust her care to my oncologist, but she kept looking for the perfect doctor and by that time it was too late.

Shanta and I shared many thoughts through emails and I called her often to see how she was doing. We had originally planned to do tempura once a month, but she became more ill. I now wish I had done take out and gone to see her. I've never quite known what to say to someone who is dying.

As Shanta and I hung out that day she decided to teach me how to be Afro American. She knew I was interested in learning everything about cultures and the differences in people. Shanta had me put my hands in the air and she told me to "raise the roof". I kept pushing on the roof of her BMW and she was laughing hysterically. She finally showed me how to "raise the roof" and told me that I was going to take a lot of work. She endeared herself to me forever for being color blind and for allowing me to be silly with her.

Shanta also raised my awareness of the magnitude of breast cancer in Afro American women and the increase in death rates.

At Shanta's funeral I placed my survivor button in her casket. She always told me that she learned a great deal from me, but in the end she really ended up to be my greatest teacher.

She fought the good fight, she stayed the course and she kept the faith.

Thumbs Up Beamer!

Outside My Box....My First Trip To Europe (Amsterdam)

I've never ventured beyond US borders much except to go to Tijuana, Mexico. The process of getting my passport and planning for my travel was exhilarating and tiring. I was well prepared for anything they might throw at me. Not bad for a gal who is 53 and has wanted to see something other than Texas Stadium.

I was bumped up to First Class for my flight to London which thrilled me. There is nothing quite like having long legs and not knowing what to do with them. Fortunately United offers 5 extra inches in coach for some of its seats. I call it "Legs Plus". As I am not flying daily anymore it's always a treat to be bumped up.

Heathrow was a bit of a nightmare, the moving walkways did not move, the smoking section might have well not existed because smoke was everywhere. Getting from the arrival gate to my connecting flight was frustrating at best. Heathrow is huge, I thought O'Hare was huge, but Heathrow is much bigger. The one thing that I did love were the hats the flight attendants wore on British Midland.

When I arrived at Schipol airport it was somewhat confusing for me trying to figure out how to meet up with my friend. I just kept walking and hoping I was going in the right direction. I eventually saw the passport booths they have and handed them my virgin passport. They didn't stamp it, I was heart broken. Going home though the young man who had looked at my passport when I arrived smiled at me, stamped my passport so I was no longer a virigin. He saw how happy that made me and I did my happy dance.

I had a wonderful time in Amsterdam. The women I met there are all survivors of breast cancer and I had a very productive week. I won't bore you with all the details, but I will say that I would love to go back. Once I learned what coffee houses really were for, why I was called "klootzak" by an angry woman, and got lost in the Red Light District I thought I'd found paradise.

And when I landed at Dulles and had to go through customs the drug dog peed on one of my bags. Ah, there is no place like home!